Dear Sweet Maui

I'm not in the mood this year. Remember how you used to spray me when you felt like it, just because you could? I feel like spraying.

I love you and miss you.

I'll say it again. I love you and miss you. You will always be "the one".  It's always going to be you, the one I loved the most.

I really miss you. I really love you. 

your human

happy birthday nuzzleface ...

Oh Maui, I almost forgot that April 30th is the day I said goodbye to you. I almost missed the chance to honor your memory.

But whatever. I know you can't hear me. It's not like you could read when you were alive.

Yet I feel compelled not only to wish you well, but to do so several days in advance because I'm so busy that I barely remembered that it's That Time Of The Year again.

I have to go. Gabriel just flung chunks of litter embedded with fecal matter across the carpet again and I have to run the vacuum for the 3rd time today. And I found a 5 inch long hairball dripping with mucous displayed in all its glory on my favorite blankie.

I think about you almost every day.

"Almost". Thankfully you cannot retaliate with one of your jealous territorial urine sprees. Actually, I wish you could. I would love to be inconvenienced by your bad behavior one more time. You redefined naughty with a charm that permanently carved out a place in my heart for enternity.

I am blessed by the memories of our time on earth, and I miss you, nuzzleface. Happy birthday, sweetheart.

your human

PS, I may feel compelled to edit this post on April 30th just to be sure you get the message.

I love you.

happy birthday nuzzlebutt, my nuzzleboy!

My dearest Maui, happy birthday

I've been thinking a lot about what to say.

Maui—you were the best cat I've ever known.

After you died little Harry Bezalel came into my life. I saw him and I just had to have the brown haired chocolate desert. Harry Bezalel. It was meant to be.  I found him in a shelter. The light from the fluorescent bulbs above us flickered and caught his eye and in a split second I could see into his soul and I decided he wanted me back. I don't know what I was doing when I finally realized the little gleam in his eye was a merely a reflection of light.

After that there was Boy. We waited together for time to pass through the hour of your death exactly one year later. But it could never be between us. Someone else loved Boy first.

It wasn't love at first sight with Gabriel but I was desperate for love and he had kind eyes framed in thick white eyeliner. And he did this mesmerizing thing with a breath and a purr.

What I have to say now I should probably say soon because I know you hated other cats. I've never smelled, lo witnessed, anything near like your loathing toward other cats; so to avoid any hurt feelings I should let you know right now that the point of talking about all the cats who have attempted to replace you is the point. It has taken a handful of cats to help me live without the one that's you.

I miss you nuzzleface.

Love,

your human




april 30 2011

fondly

the world's greatest cat remembered ...just because I love him

This photo sums it up. He lived the dream. A dream he was far too conscious of to be considered just an ordinary cat.

I thought about you today, and yesterday too.

I remember the day I took this picture of you, nuzzleface ...

There Is Nothing About You I Don't Love

I'm even OK with the fact that you are not Maui ...

Happy Birthday, Maui, My Little Nuzzlebutt

Dear nuzzleface, I hope this doesn't upset Jesus but I hope you're the first thing I see when I get to heaven! No wait, this might work: I get there and I see you both right at the same time - but when I see you both at the same time Jesus' big toe is perhaps inched ever so closer to me than you. I do notice this in awe and reverence indeed - and being time is probably not measured in heaven as on earth - I finagle a little glance in your direction at the exact same time I see Jesus and yet somehow through some heavenly time trick I see Jesus first at the same time I see you. And then Jesus gives me the nod - and you come running into my arms. How do I miss you nuzzleboy; God knows.


Love forever,
your human